When I got home from the hospital in January I put up a sign for others to be aware and responsible for their presence, “Please be mindful of the energy you bring into my space.” There is a vastness of levels to awareness and consciousness. I find that most people walk around in oblivion (me included). Unfortunately I have grown hypersensitive to energy and have to remind myself that not everyone knows the crap they carry with them. This force is the influential factor to who and what we are in this world. The more aware you are of your emotions the easier you can navigate through this life.
As I rest during the night I witness a few levels of awareness. The first one is self-awareness: my body on the bed, breathing, discomfort, cold, achy, tired, relaxed, etc. The second one is the awareness of my surroundings: cars driving by, temperature in the room, my mate’s snores, cats running outside the room, a dog barking in the distance, etc. The third awareness is the one that takes me past the veil of what we see and feel as “real.” This is the one that most people cannot understand and have little respect for its sensitivity. This is the “other realm.” In this awareness I feel the movement of spirits or energy in the room, I hear breathing and whispers, I can see orbs, I can see auras and shapes, I receive messages, etc.
In this esoteric realm the awareness seems to be disregarded by most. The energy and mood brought into others’ spaces is magnified. Whatever your situation, the external world will latch onto it. I have been to places that I immediately have to leave because the energy is so heavy. My third form of awareness is not always “on” but my sensitivity is still picking it up. I can’t imagine the damage I must’ve made in others’ spaces when I was in chaos, turmoil, excited or depressed. I am responsible for those emotions and it is irresponsible to carry them outside of my space. Don’t get me wrong, we all have bad days but it is up to us to be aware of what we are carrying. No one else needs our extra baggage!
We all have the ability to feel that third awareness. I don’t care who you are. It will come out through creative gifts, intuition, feelings, words, and many other ways. No one is more “psychic” than another. It is how we tap into that intuition that requires the expansion of awareness. It is also about realizing that ego plays NO PART in these abilities. The more you release the knowing to the higher consciousness, the more open you become to unconditional love.
I avoided my “gifts” for most of my life. When I moved to Asheville four years ago something happen that landed me in therapy. I walked into the therapist’s office and quickly said, “Okay, I’ve done this before. I know how this works. You gotta fix me ASAP! I got no time for this. I think I am schizophrenic….” The woman took one look at me and asked if I had been diagnosed in my twenties? I explained that I had not but that I was seeing hallucinations everywhere. When she asked what kind of hallucinations I immediately shouted, “I am seeing dead people everywhere!” At this point I didn’t want to leave my home. I couldn’t sleep. I felt horrible as I would listen to the voices of my past calling me names with scrutiny, judgment and cruelty. I did not want to be considered crazy, witchy, evil, or any other label that society places on the unknown. The anxiety I was experiencing was highly disturbing. I would walk down the aisles in the grocery store and say, “Excuse me” to someone and then realize they weren’t alive. These “gifts” were not gifts. I would say that “gifts can be returned and this you can’t!” Luckily I ended up having a wonderful therapist who was spiritual and open minded (as most folks in Asheville). She helped me embrace these moments and return to the root of my fears from childhood, past relationships, family, and so much more that stumped my spiritual growth. Once I did embrace the gifts, the challenge was in learning to set boundaries (to the living and to the dead). I would not share with anyone other than very close friends and family. It has taken years and self-love to live authentic to my divinity.
What happens to us when we have been programmed to believe false illusions because of religious or cultural beliefs? We all have the capacity to expand beyond our belief systems. The minute I wake I put a bubble of divine light around me every day for protection. I have learned to breathe and release in moments I am present to negative forces. I pray, meditate, and involve myself in nature as much as possible to ground my energies. Whenever I perform Reiki or energy work on others (whether physically or long distance) I am present with that person’s vibration. It has taken me years to learn and continue to evolve in my spirituality. Sharing this is one of the rarest moments that I’ve experienced in allowing my truth to speak to a mass audience.
I hope you embrace your truth, your awareness, and allow God to speak through you without fear. I am reminded on a daily basis that I am a student of the great mysteries. I know very little, but in the things I have learned I want to ask that you take responsibility for your energy, vibration, emotions and words. You are not just carrying around this on your own universe. You are transporting it and adding onto others. We are all connected on a web of miracles shifting ever so beautifully. Be mindful of love, thoughts and feelings. Be present and live fully. Love, patience, kindness, and faith are right on top of our human list for survival and connection to each other. Allow yourself the reward of true awareness through Divinity, God, the Great Mysteries, or whatever you choose to call the sacredness of You. You are pure light and love!
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About the Author: Millie A. Mestril
After raising six children, working in the corporate world, and being part of a relationship for eighteen years, I found that happiness was not consistent in my world. I left the business world, ended a relationship that was deteriorating and headed to the mountains. My best friend and I bought a small motel in the middle of gorgeous country and began the greatest journey. What started as a visit to Asheville in May of 2010 became a permanent home for us. Now with only one teenager at home, I am able to be part of a wonderful world of meeting people from all walks of life. We’ve transformed an old gem of a place into a sweet and quaint oasis for others to find peace. To those looking into our lives it seems we saved Peaceful Quest Retreats, but the reality is that this place saved us. Every day brings joy, inspiration and a zest for life I never knew existed. The lessons have not always been easy but the ride has been scenic and delightful. I can’t imagine ever returning to a life that was not authentic to my spirit. ~ Millie A. Mestril