I have been walking a spiritual path for some time now. It is not always easy to walk on faith without being able to see the end result. Some time ago when I left my “old life” of the city to move to the mountains of North Carolina, I felt a shift in consciousness. I awoke through unconditional love and forgiving myself for the choices I made in the past. I began to hold myself accountable for those lessons and experiences rather than blaming others. Once I forgave myself it was easy to forgive those characters who played in my stories.
I consciously made a clear intention that I was going to embrace the love for life. Awakening, to me, is just the allowance of being present in the evolution of life. There is nothing more or less to it. It is about being present through the journey. We are to wake up and expect nothing. That is the beauty in it and the simplicity of allowance. We hear about waking up or enlightenment and think we will walk on water or fly on air. The reality of waking is to exceed the dream state, the matrix of expectation. One sees the world as it is, not how our perception creates it. Things just are. The dream dematerializes, vanishing into sleep. The illusion of control, law and science melts because life just is. This moment is the only thing available. There is no need for fear because all there is has been presented to you. Because there is no past and no future, life exists as the path on a mystical journey.
Awakening is relinquishing ego and fully understanding what the great masters understood. No thought can go beyond here. No thought can go back. One lives the texture, minute, tastes, smells and words in the experience of the moment. That’s the enchantment of awakening to a life of Spirit. It is never easy to walk on faith. There is a “knowing” in the process of releasing all. This knowing is the direct alignment of presence. It is the direct voice of God and Spirit guiding you without anxiety, apprehension, ignorance, doubt and fear. Those emotions vanish. In waking they can’t exist because there is no need to control the future, or regrets in changing the past. One arrives to this moment via the Karmic train of letting the universe guide you through your highest consciousness.
We interpret faith as a release and an allowance of quantum energy not seen, not known, but allowed. Awakening is not work. It is the opposite of resistance. It is not manipulation. No one can translate it and try to teach “awakening.” That’s ego teaching. Spirit can guide you but can’t physically show you. When one is ready one travels and awakes at the perfect moment. This might be as a child, an adult or on the last breath in this life. “Letting go, and letting God” is the perfect example of this theory. I believe that through daily spiritual practice, whether it is through meditation, prayer, yoga, hiking, writing (to name a few), the process of authentic truth arrives. It is then that the awareness of the NOW becomes the awakening catalyst.
Complications and situations in our lives are the components of our humanity. Humanness is weaved between reality and the esoteric world. We are all interconnected. The one way to release our perception is to completely let go from the heart. Love is all there is. Allowing the love to flow through life will present a vacated spot inside where there was once emptiness. That’s another part of the awakening process: allowing love to unite each person. No hurt can exist when there is only love. There is no emptiness to fill if there is no desire to exceed wants and needs. Expectation is the ego’s way of assuming control.
Awakening doesn’t require you to withdraw from the world. It requires you to withdraw from your ego. Once awakened you don’t need to avoid humanity. One becomes even more compassionate without the ratifications of others to penetrate. One cannot stop ignoring divinity inside which is your essence moving outward. This is the gift of awakening. It is a choice. It is freewill. It will come if one renounces the old paradigms and beliefs. Stopping the presence of love is the state one lives in when not awakened. Love is not to be held, controlled or withheld. It is the ongoing energy of the universe. It is all there is. There is no need to go to a monastery, or escape the real world to reach this state of openness. Ultimately the only reason we have been placed on this beautiful planet is to live, love and learn from one another. And, this is perhaps the truth in fully awakening through love.
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About the Author: Millie A. Mestril
After raising six children, working in the corporate world, and being part of a relationship for eighteen years, I found that happiness was not consistent in my world. I left the business world, ended a relationship that was deteriorating and headed to the mountains. My best friend and I bought a small motel in the middle of gorgeous country and began the greatest journey. What started as a visit to Asheville in May of 2010 became a permanent home for us. Now with only one teenager at home, I am able to be part of a wonderful world of meeting people from all walks of life. We’ve transformed an old gem of a place into a sweet and quaint oasis for others to find peace. To those looking into our lives it seems we saved Peaceful Quest Retreats, but the reality is that this place saved us. Every day brings joy, inspiration and a zest for life I never knew existed. The lessons have not always been easy but the ride has been scenic and delightful. I can’t imagine ever returning to a life that was not authentic to my spirit. ~ Millie A. Mestril